Yesterday morning, I woke up with my stomach in knots. It was the day of my consultation with the neurologist after receiving word in October that I had a spot on my MRA scan that was “inconclusive.” I went into my second MRA last week with a diagnosis sheet that read “Brain aneurysm, unruptured,” and was bracing myself to receive unfavorable news.
The morning dragged until my 1:15 appointment time, and time passed even slower as my dad, Luke, and I waited in the consultation room for an extra 50 minutes until the neurologist’s PA came in. The butterflies in my stomach were fluttering at full speed when she advised us that she had just looked over my scans with Dr. Siddiqui:
“We have no cause for concern.”
I think I breathed an audible sigh of relief when I heard those words come out of her mouth. She continued to tell us that the section of the scan that caused the need for a second MRA was “normal.” Turns out, one of the vessels in my brain that connects to an artery widens at the end in a funnel-like shape rather than staying narrow. Apparently this is something that roughly 20% of people have.
There was no change in the vessel from my last scan back in October, and if it weren’t for my family history (my maternal grandma dying from a brain aneurysm and my mom’s ruptured aneurysm), they wouldn’t even feel the need to monitor me. Since the family history exists, however, I’ll need to go back for another MRA in a year just to be sure there is no change in the scan. From there, the longer I go without a change, the longer I will be able to go in-between exams.
Last night, I realized the weight I had been carrying around since October. Apparently I had been more stressed about my appointment today than I even realized. I was so emotionally exhausted and relieved that I ended up falling asleep before 9:00 – and for the first time in a long time, I slept straight through until our alarm went off this morning.
I’ve never been so happy to be called “normal” in my life, and I’m ready to wipe out the word “aneurysm” from my vocabulary and my daily thoughts.
Thank you to everyone who sent their thoughts, prayers, and PMA my way!